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guardians_song) wrote2013-01-01 12:36 pm
guardians_song) wrote2013-01-01 12:36 pm
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So... Retrospective, and resolutions.
Well... 2012 was the most miserable year I can remember. I am thoroughly glad to have it behind me. On the other hand, it's the year in which I made it back to LJ, for which I am profoundly glad. This year would have been... a lot lonelier and a lot more depressing without it. So - thanks to all who were here. :)
I'd say my primary lesson of 2012 was - to be blunt about it - learning not to trust optimists. It was a damaging lesson, but it made me outgrow my long-standing guilt trip about lacking faith that all would be well, being too negative, &c &c, so it may be beneficial in the long run.
I also gave up caffeine! Say what you will about Mitt Romney, but the man proved that it's possible to function in modern society without the American drug of choice, so there was one benefit to his campaign. :P
...If I had to look on the positive side of this year, it's that I've begun to reset to the person I was years ago. Minus the immaturity, hopefully, but... I'm recovering an interest in the world around me, I'm regaining a self-image that's more than a list of what I am not, and I'm rediscovering what it's like to have fun experimenting and learning new things.
Now, as for resolutions...
1. I'm going to STUDY. Heck, I'm not just going to study school - I'm going tojump in ALL the holes! study whatever I get my hands on.
2. I'm going to adopt a realistic, pragmatic attitude towards interacting with the people around me. ...This means that I'll stop trying to reason with people who refuse to listen to reason and instead just navigate around them. ...Yes, this will be the most frequently broken resolution, how can you tell?
2.5. Related - I'm going to stop freezing up out of fear of criticism and just do what I need to do. Will I screw up? Inevitably. But any screw-ups will be my screw-ups, not things I didn't do because I was cringing like a coward.
3. I'm going to exercise.
4. I'm going to actually keep to this year's resolutions. Stop laughing - I mean it. :P But... honestly, I do have the willpower. I just need to disconnect my willpower from what's expected of me and wanted of me and do them because I want to do them.
5. I'm going to pull myself out from under the fog I've been under for years. This may be the easiest - It's already happening on its own. But I'm going to advance the timetable.
6. I'm going to try to break certain compulsive bad habits. Not because I've been nagged to do so, but because I want to do so. (Do I have a mild complex about this? Yes.)
7. Most importantly of all - I'm going to grow a spine.
Now, let's see how well I manage to uphold them! >:D
I'd say my primary lesson of 2012 was - to be blunt about it - learning not to trust optimists. It was a damaging lesson, but it made me outgrow my long-standing guilt trip about lacking faith that all would be well, being too negative, &c &c, so it may be beneficial in the long run.
I also gave up caffeine! Say what you will about Mitt Romney, but the man proved that it's possible to function in modern society without the American drug of choice, so there was one benefit to his campaign. :P
...If I had to look on the positive side of this year, it's that I've begun to reset to the person I was years ago. Minus the immaturity, hopefully, but... I'm recovering an interest in the world around me, I'm regaining a self-image that's more than a list of what I am not, and I'm rediscovering what it's like to have fun experimenting and learning new things.
Now, as for resolutions...
1. I'm going to STUDY. Heck, I'm not just going to study school - I'm going to
2. I'm going to adopt a realistic, pragmatic attitude towards interacting with the people around me. ...This means that I'll stop trying to reason with people who refuse to listen to reason and instead just navigate around them. ...Yes, this will be the most frequently broken resolution, how can you tell?
2.5. Related - I'm going to stop freezing up out of fear of criticism and just do what I need to do. Will I screw up? Inevitably. But any screw-ups will be my screw-ups, not things I didn't do because I was cringing like a coward.
3. I'm going to exercise.
4. I'm going to actually keep to this year's resolutions. Stop laughing - I mean it. :P But... honestly, I do have the willpower. I just need to disconnect my willpower from what's expected of me and wanted of me and do them because I want to do them.
5. I'm going to pull myself out from under the fog I've been under for years. This may be the easiest - It's already happening on its own. But I'm going to advance the timetable.
6. I'm going to try to break certain compulsive bad habits. Not because I've been nagged to do so, but because I want to do so. (Do I have a mild complex about this? Yes.)
7. Most importantly of all - I'm going to grow a spine.
Now, let's see how well I manage to uphold them! >:D